I am the bearer of guilt. Not just growing up guilt that we are all given as children, but the guilt I gave to myself. I don’t believe that self-guilt is primarily a woman’s affliction. Women are the loudest about their burdens. We like to talk about them, regret things, and ponder them out loud for discussion. While men tend to clam up and silently carry around their guilt. However,… Read More »5 Things You Should Forgive Yourself For, but probaly wont.
This post contains affiliate links that I make a small commission on with no added fee to your purchase. I knew something was different that day. I wasn’t sure what it was, perhaps the weather was about to change again, perhaps there would be snow. Yes, that would be a welcome change from this hot and sticky air. All day I went to the window and looked out and waited… Read More »Perhaps today will snow
The last few months have been pretty stressful for me as we prepare to move across the country and build a new house. For various reasons I often feel like I forget how to relax and trust that it will be ok. I allow conflict and complication to come into my life. Now I can say that I didn’t set out to look for crazy people to wander into my… Read More »Holding On To Your Happy Place
I should tell you what exactly the 9’s are. The 9’s are 19,29,39,49 ect… that year before the big change in your life. That year when you try to wrap it all up and make it look like the last 9 years you spent doing something lasting and memorable, those are the 9’s.
There are a lot of blogs out there. Mommy blogs, Review blogs, make-up and photography blogs pop up every day. Some make it, some have great content and gain readers. Some don’t.. the writer gets bored and eventually walks away. I love to write, I always have. It was a great way to cope with life and stress. I loved writing in diaries and little notebooks. All were filled with notes about life as I saw it.
Our family used to be the typical get up at dawn, grab donuts and stand in line in front of the department store kind of gang every Black Friday. We would load up in the minivan with the kids still full from the Thanksgiving feast, bundled up against the chilly November air and set off at 7 a.m. I would always have my first eggnog of the season and… Read More »Being an empty-nest parent changed my Black Friday traditions
Recently I ended a longtime friendship. It hurt, it felt like I was giving up on a part of my life that even as hard as I tried, no matter as much as I wanted it, it was just broken. I wanted to fix it so badly that I was always willing to give my own happiness in order to keep it. That’s not friendship, it’s obsession. Our relationship was… Read More »Treat Her Better
I wrote this a few years ago after my best friend and “brother” died. I just didn’t know how I was going to get through this horrible feeling called grief. I took to writing as a way of getting all of those emotions out of my head and setting them free. What I learned was that there are so many people out there trying to figure out how to cope… Read More »Tuesday
I’m not sure if it is because I am a creative person or perhaps growing up religious opens my mind up to the possibilities, but I believe in the Afterlife. I am a spiritual person. I always have been. I believe in spirits, Angels, lives before this one, and Karma. I have a fondness for the teachings of Wiccans, Jewish Kabbalah, and even a brief understanding of several… Read More »Thoughts About The Afterlife
No matter who we are, our life choices, or the number of people we are surrounded by, all of us want to know that we are not alone. We want people in our lives that know us for who we really are and love us in spite of knowing. We call those people family. It used to be that you were bound together first by blood, then by clan, and… Read More »Family by Choice
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I'm a mother of five kids who somehow all managed to make it through infancy, toddlerhood, tweens, teens and some even into their 20s. I know firsthand that if there are rules to break, you will at some point break them before they leave the nest. Before becoming a mother, I had the list of rules that I would never break as a parent. Things that I swore I would do differently than my own upbringing went on that list.
I swore I'd never send my child to bed without dinner. I'd never scream at them. I'd never raise a hand to them. I'd be nice all of the time. However, the reality is that there are moments when those rules bend. My children, four boys and finally a little girl, were not angels. In fact, each of them challenged not only my parenting, but my sanity.
It is not flesh and blood, but heart which makes us fathers and sons. ~ Friedrich von Schiller. One of my boys, Harry, is getting married in a few weeks. And even though this isn’t shocking news, it is something that leaves me conflicted and thoughtful. How is it possible that in just a few short weeks, one of my boys will be standing in front of friends and family… Read More »Mother of the Groom
Like so many, I have always struggled with the concept of family and that historical bond that is said to connect people together and give them some sense of pride and bonding. Yet in my own history I’ve seen blood family have little more to do with each other than passing strangers or childhood friends, such connections were not part of my world. Blood connections were there, but not a… Read More »Kindred connections
“Crying is all right in its way while it lasts. But you have to stop sooner or later, and then you still have to decide what to do.” ― C.S. Lewis, The Silver Chair We are all there sometimes, when it feels as if there is nothing left in your soul but hurt. It hurts to think; each thought just rips open your heart and leads to more pain.… Read More »Cry til you can’t anymore…