In 2012, my brother Lance was killed by a texting driver on his way home from the gym. He had just left me a voicemail telling me to call him back and “show me some love” and I called back minutes later… but he was already gone. That huge loss in my life changed everything for me. For the better, and a few things for the worse. Out of my… Read More »Finding strength to move through grief with creativity
I live every day with Lyme Disease. It’s a struggle some days, but after the death of my brother, I learned that stress and grief can be physically felt and Lyme Disease tried to take advantage of that. In 2012 my best friend and adopted brother, Lance was killed in an accident involving a distracted driver and his motorcycle. His devastating loss and my grief sent me into spirals. It… Read More »How I Learned How To Accept Grief And Fight Lyme Disease
“Where and then feast have we sat together but to build and pray. Have words smelled of color that wrap in winters breath as we lie in tranquill. When, in the peace of time, does the sound breathe. Together, lost in love and patience…..”
~ Lance Kassle November ’04
The world lost an amazing artist of words this week.
This post contains affiliate links that I make a small commission on with no added fee to your purchase. I knew something was different that day. I wasn’t sure what it was, perhaps the weather was about to change again, perhaps there would be snow. Yes, that would be a welcome change from this hot and sticky air. All day I went to the window and looked out and waited… Read More »Perhaps today will snow
There have been times that I truly wish could have lingered on a little longer. Moments when I knew this was one of the best moments of my life and I wanted to hold on to them. Sometimes in daydreams I go back in time, trying to feel that specialness again. They sit on the protected shelves in the halls of my memories and from time to time I take… Read More »Let it Linger
I wrote this a few years ago after my best friend and “brother” died. I just didn’t know how I was going to get through this horrible feeling called grief. I took to writing as a way of getting all of those emotions out of my head and setting them free. What I learned was that there are so many people out there trying to figure out how to cope… Read More »Tuesday
I wrote this August 5th 2015… after being told AGAIN that my mother was on her deathbed. She had a habit of “dying” and after a few years of going through hell with the emotional roller coaster, I stopped getting on the ride. It took me a while to stop looking back to see if I had done the right thing and a lot of tears when I wasn’t… Read More »Making peace and saying good-bye
A few years ago, my best friend and brother died tragically in an accident. I struggled to figure out how I was going to make it through such a terrible event in my life and I turned to writing as an outlet. Writing, art, music, all are healing and really helped me to leg go for a while and slip into my thoughts without them taking over my life. Grief is hard, it is… Read More »3 – looking at grief in moments of 3.
I’m not sure if it is because I am a creative person or perhaps growing up religious opens my mind up to the possibilities, but I believe in the Afterlife. I am a spiritual person. I always have been. I believe in spirits, Angels, lives before this one, and Karma. I have a fondness for the teachings of Wiccans, Jewish Kabbalah, and even a brief understanding of several… Read More »Thoughts About The Afterlife
The tears are fresh, still lingering just under my lids. I can’t believe she’s gone. She was just here, just snuggled up warm under the sheets with me, how can she be dead? Last night my sweet kitty woke us up screaming in pain. She came into my bed, told me something terrible was happening to her and she needed help. After rushing her to the emergency vet, we were… Read More »Letting Go – When Pets Die
She loved hummingbirds. We always had feeders filled with sugar water tinted ruby red for her little friends. My Gram would point them out, knew them all by their colors and personalities. I always loved the blue and green ones the best. Sitting on the front porch in our rocking chairs, she’d sip her iced tea and watch the little guys come buzzing up to the feeders. She had two… Read More »Hummingbirds
Like so many, I have always struggled with the concept of family and that historical bond that is said to connect people together and give them some sense of pride and bonding. Yet in my own history I’ve seen blood family have little more to do with each other than passing strangers or childhood friends, such connections were not part of my world. Blood connections were there, but not a… Read More »Kindred connections
In August 2012, I lost my best friend in a terrible accident. He was so important to me and I was so freaking mad after a few months that people started to worry about me. So after a few months I went to a therapist to try to feel better. She tried to explain the steps of grief to me and I explained that I knew all of that and… Read More »His Letter to Me – A letter of grief, friendship, and letting go… sort of.
The Boulder County Coroner’s Office today identified the motorcyclist killed in a collision with an SUV on 30th Street last week as Lance Gurney, 40. At 4:53 p.m. Aug. 21, a woman driving a 2000 Lexus SUV told police she was pulling out of a private parking lot driveway and attempting to make a left turn onto northbound 30th Street near O’Neal Parkway. She told police she thought she had… Read More »Gone too soon.