8 ball 1Lyme Disease feels like living with a Magic 8 Ball.  You really never know what you are going to wake up with in the morning. Sometimes you get lucky and it tells you to try again tomorrow and you have a really great day.

Sometimes you get the iffy answer that you are just going to have to get dressed and find out what will happen, and other days you know as soon as you open your eyes that the answer is that you are screwed.

I really try not to focus on it too much. There are times, seasons actually, that the issues aren’t that bad. I’ll get an odd inflammation spot and it’ll hurt, but really pain is part of the day-to-day. So you learn how to stop using that arm for a day, walk without putting much pressure on that leg, or just deal with it and wait it out. I don’t do well with medications of any kind, even homeopathic. Sometimes just heat or a bath helps get through a day when it is particularly painful.

There are so many people living with Lyme disease searching like I have for answers and hope. There are some ways to help symptoms, but still there are few rays of hope. I give to the Lyme researchers, hoping that one of them will come up with something useful.

To be honest, Lyme is a nightmare. I rarely admit that. But it is so frightening that sometimes in the midst of the harder times, you just worry that you are going to live in misery for the rest of your life, and you wonder how long that will be.  You look at your children, afraid they might have it, then feel like a terrible mother because you know that your health is letting them down. Sometimes I am so angry with how I feel that my husband thinks I don’t care about him the same way, it’s not him.. it’s the Lyme. Depression is a hard symptom to fight, it feeds on your fear. “What if my heart is the next thing to stop working right?” It makes you so exhausted that you lack motivation to do better. “I don’t want to get on the treadmill, it hurts me and I am so tired I would rather just curl up on the couch.” Your lack of movement isn’t helping your self-esteem or your body, it just makes it heavier and weaker.

People ask me from time to time to talk to a friend or family member about living with Lyme. I always freeze up. I hear myself saying that I will, but deep down I am shaking at the idea that someone else out there is going through the crap I am going through and if I have to stand there and pinpoint what Lyme really feels like and tell them that they are not going to see the end of it any time soon, I might cry.

8 ball 2I wish I had better answers.  I try to give hope when I do talk to other people about the disease that is taking down people every day.  Men, women, and children are getting infected with a serious disease and until recently nobody was aware.  Treated early and hard in the beginning, Lyme disease is treatable and your odds of a complete recovery are really good. But left undiagnosed like so many of us were, it becomes a world of pain and curious symptoms that I often find overwhelming.

Searching for answers sometimes helps. I’ve found some wonderful websites and I share them with those who are looking. And sometimes just learning how to forget about it for a while and focus on the good places in your life is the best treatment you’ll get. It’s just how the ball rolls.

Good luck!

15 thoughts on “Lyme disease feels like living with a Magic 8 Ball.”

  1. My heart goes out to you. My partner is a Lymie (Cee at http://ceenphotography.com/). She’s lived with it for 35 years, as best we can tell. It has almost killed her three times. But the good news is that it’s getting to be a distant memory now. In fact, we seldom say or think the word. When western medicine failed us, we turned to Traditional Chinese Medicine and found an incredible healer in Master Liu He. Cee is now off all of her antibiotics and has been for a long time. The chronic lung infection is a thing of the past. She has a remarkably clear mind. Her energy levels are increasing. There is hope. Contact one of us if you’d like some ideas of easy things you can do to help yourself.
    Hugs and blessings! Chris

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    1. I have had much better results with herbal treatments than any of the pharmaceuticals with their terrible side effects. I am truly blessed to live where I do that I can have access to alternative treatments rather than being regulated to only treat with harsh drugs.

      Thanks for the great link!

          1. You are very welcome. I was undiagnosed for 12 years and looking for something that would help. Drs. told me I had a brain tumor, MS. Parkinsons. PCOS, and Fibro. The answer was as easy as a tiny tick bite.

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